My Word to you today is abandon. Abandon your plans for success to Me. Show me that you trust Me by laying down your preconceived ideas about what success is. It hurts my heart to see you being so hard on yourself because of your perceived ‘failures.’ I know you better than you know yourself and I see your heart; your desire to please Me in all things. This desire pleases Me more than you can imagine. When a mother sees the effort of her young child striving in love and in a desire to please, does she resent or distain her children’s less than perfect efforts? No. Neither do I see in your earnest efforts to please Me any fault.
Daughter, abandon your ideas of what is beautiful. You have spent far too much of your life considering yourself of average beauty and judging your feelings of attractiveness by the worlds standards. You carry within you the reflection of My beauty. I created you to reflect to the world the feminine aspects of my nature. Where others have labeled you as overly emotional, I have seen the beauty of your tender heart, precious in My sight. You have considered your easily wounded heart as a burden, but I know the truth. Your heart is like the womb of a mother, filled with the possibilities of what the people and circumstances you encounter could be. The distance between what is and what could be is a matter of your willingness not to abort what I have deposited inside of you and instead nurture and nourish it through prayer and obedience. Your eagerness to labor and push at the appointed time, until what was once only the seeds of life are fully matured and birthed out of the supernatural into the natural world where their reality becomes visible to the human eye, pleases Me.
I have seen what you have carried within your heart in nights of weeping and days of fasting. I can see what is taking place in the unseen realm because of your faith and obedience to Me, even though you often feel there has been no return for your efforts to surrender all these years. Many of My most faithful disciples worked behind the scenes in my Kingdom, never having seen the great impact they were having on My world, but for you, My daughter, a day is coming and is very soon near when a harvest will be reaped in Your life that will lay to rest all of your doubts that the voice you have been following has been My voice and that the promises you have been clinging to were in fact, as you have always known in the depths of your being, My promises to you personally and specifically. From the moment I told you to ‘Wait’ and you said “Yes, Master’ I have not ceased working to bring about the miracles for which you have been waiting.
I know that you have not always waited as patiently or as perfectly as you desired to wait, but I see how you have, in each season and trial I have walked you through, sought the better part, the best that I have for you. The burden has been overwhelming for you at times I know, to the point that you have doubted your very sanity in believing Me and My voice, but your mind and your doubts have not stopped you from plowing ahead, sacrificing what seemed like your very sanity if need be to believe that which I have spoken to you will come to pass. Hold on because it is coming soon. The labor pains have been great. The lack you have perceived in your life seem like your constant reality. But I am coming with the provision that has been held back from you for these long years. When I move I will wipe away all lack and you will stand in awe of the harvest that is coming. The cornucopia of blessing that you have tasted in your inner life will be breaking forth into the natural realm.
You have held back from me long enough what is most useful to be used for the furthering of My Kingdom in your life, the things that you find most repulsive about your past. The flaws that you most despise in your life are gold in my Kingdom and can be used to purchase entrance into the lives of many of my wounded and lost children. Do not be ashamed any more. I have redeemed you. I have redeemed your past, your flaws, and your life. Climb out of your shell and put on the new life that I have died for you to have, full of provision; mind, body and spirit. No more eating the crumbs from the table. Pull up a chair and feast with me. I no longer call you a servant, but a friend. Today is the day that you step into your destiny. Ask whatever you will. Anything you need I will provide because I know that your desire is to be close to me always and to accomplish the work that I have prepared in advance for you to do. I crown you with new life. I am breathing on your life and all of the ashes of yesterday are being scattered to reveal the gold buried deep within you. Take your place at my side. Stop apologizing to Me and to yourself for all that you aren’t and focus your attention on all that I Am. Watch and see what I will do.
The desires of your heart will come to pass.