I went to go get Forrest groceries while he’s in dance class at Alvin Ailey and forgot to take a cart from his upper east side Manhattan apartment, like any southern girl would. I just about severed both of my arms off trying to get the heavy bags of food back to his apartment.
Several people with their little carts on wheels passed me as I struggled down the street. They were probably thinking ‘She must have just moved here.’
I’ve managed to cook a couple of things to freeze for Forrest. He can take them down as he wants them. I’m right on schedule. I wanted to get out exploring around noon. I’ll be meeting up with Forrest this evening to go see Illuminate, the dancers that were on Americas Got Talent, perform.
I was teasing Forrest yesterday about how much I keep coming to visit after he moved out. He said he doubted I would be making so many trips if he were living in some city in Oklahoma or something. He may be on to something.
I love NYC!
Arrived Saturday, leaving Wednesday. This will be my fourth trip here since last July when he moved, not including when I flew to Manchester to watch him perform in the Nutcracker in December. I really need to get on the ball with my travel posts! I started a post about my trip to the beach last month and it turned into me chatting it up about several other trips I have been on this year. Perhaps I can figure out a way to break that massive writing up and share some of my adventures on WordPress again soon.
Trust Me and do not be afraid. Trust in the ability I have given to you to be led by My Spirit. Do not allow doubt and unbelief to cause you to second guess yourself after you have made a decision by My guidance.
The enemy wants to tie your emotions up in knots; to riddle you with anxiety by causing you to worry that I am not the one leading you, and that the steps you are taking will lead you into failure and defeat. These are lies sent to infiltrate your mind and draw your thoughts away from Me and My plan; from peace.
The moment you feel yourself sinking and second guessing yourself, draw away into the secret place of solitude with Me. Even if you only have moments or minutes, focus your eyes on the cross and listen as I bring My Word up from your spirit into your mind. Take those words and meditate on them until they calm the waves of worry that threaten My rightful place in your heart.
Do you need conformation that the decision you have made is by My guidance? Ask Me and I will graciously give to you all that you need to walk forward in confidence. I take no delight in seeing My children confused and taking steps of obedience in fearful reluctance because they desire to please and follow Me but are afraid of falling into a trap. My Word is a light to your feet and a lamp for your path. You are not walking in darkness anymore. Step out in faith knowing that I will honor your genuine, heartfelt desire to please me, regardless of the possibility that you will take a misstep. Your wobbly steps of obedience can not mess up the good plan I have for your life.
As you move forward, letting go of what lies behind and pressing towards the good things that are ahead, your sight will improve. With each step of faith that you take, the path before you will appear brighter, for you will gain confidence in Me as you see Me cause all things to work together for your good. There are many things that will remain obscured from your view until the appointed time. I won’t reveal them to you until you are ready.
Seek My face and not just My hand.
Do you need a sign? Ask for one. And then put aside all preconceived ideas of what I plan to do, how I plan to do it, and who I plan to do it through and watch. Wait for me to confirm the steps you are to take. As you lay aside all of your preferences, My hand will move to reveal My ways. Keep in mind that My ways are above your ways. I will show you which way you are to go, but I will not always show you more than a few steps ahead on your path. If I did this, the command for you to walk by faith would not be necessary. As it is, you must walk by faith, that at the next turn I will be there too, showing you the next step; teaching you which choice is right for you on that next leg of our journey.
Your life is a grand adventure! Do not let the threats of danger cause you to recoil from the challenge to plow ahead. I have provided all that you need to live a victorious life in Me.
The provision and relationships that you need will meet you along the way. There is no need to horde today’s provision for fear of tomorrow. Give freely as I lead, without fear of lack.
Let go of those people and situations that are no longer producing life. Allow me to cut away those things that are dead. Do not cling to the corpses of the past. Release your past and past relationships into My loving hands. I will either bring those dead things back to life and restore them to you along the way, as I see fit, or I will bring you into new life in another way.
You must let go of what is dead. I am the God of the living.
Have no opinion as to how I am going to meet your needs. Know only that l, beyond a shadow of a doubt, am meeting all of your needs according to My riches and glory. Taste and see that I am good.
My Words to you are healing and they are life. When you open the Bible and read, you are reading My love letter to you. I have tucked away many life-giving promises in My Word. Seek Me there; seek Me with your whole heart and you will find Me. There are promises that I have provided to encourage you and build your faith that I am handling all of the circumstances that you face; working to bring about the changes and healing that your heart longs for both in your own life and the life of your loved one.
Give Me your attention. Focus your mind on Me and delve into the Words that I have given you. They are life. They will bring life to your mortal body and into the body of your loved one.
Speak to Me in the morning, as you walk on your way during the hours of your day, and as you prepare to sleep at night. Ask Me for what you need. Do you need more faith? Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word. Meditate on My Word day and night.
As you shift your focus from the problems that surround you and the enemies that seem to be knocking at your door, you’re going to have a whole new perspective; My perspective. You will find there is nothing to fear.
I love you. I love those that are dear to your heart. My love is perfect and without defect. Give yourself and your loved one completely into My hands.
Hold onto My promises.
Let go of the cares and worries that are choking out the peace and joy that I have given you. I give you peace that passes all understanding. It is yours right now, not tomorrow, not when healing has already manifested in the natural realm on your behalf, but right now.
I am. I am whatever it is you need Me to be.
I have promised to meet all of your needs. Do you believe that I desire to meet all of your needs? Believe My Words and your prayers will prosper. You’re persistence in prayer pleases Me. Deep within your heart you know that I am a rewarder of those that diligently seek Me. Your diligence will pay off. I have dispatched My angels on your behalf. Don’t doubt for one instant. My ears have not been deaf to your cries for relief. My Spirit is hovering over those things which concern you and breathing My life into them; creating an outcome far better than you can even right now imagine.
Patiently await the appointed time of your deliverance. It will not come one minute too late.
Prepare your heart by spending time with Me and follow Me by acknowledging Me in all of your ways. I am making your path straight. I am healing those things that you are holding before Me in your heart in prayer.
No more agony. Taste and see that I am good. You will not be denied.
You are My own special treasure. You are not being rejected by others, you are being protected by Me. You’re value is far greater than can be measured by the standard of fallen man, therefore I have to step in and remove those that would under esteem and misunderstand what I am doing in and through you.
Those that come against you, turn their back on you, or simply refuse to acknowledge the beauty you offer, are insignificant players in the greater scheme of what I am doing in your life during this season.
At the most they are sandpaper helping to polish the precious jewel that you are; what was once heart break and agony, is slowly becoming nothing more than a minor irritation as your edges are polished to enable you to reflect my image in greater measures.
At the least, they are being revealed as examples of what I do not have for you, sign posts, pointing you to wounded parts of yourself so that you can swing open the door of your heart and have me pull out any splinters that, left wedged in, can fester and attract flies.
There is nothing accidental taking place.
The very rejection you are experiencing is on a deep level taking place because you are no longer content to eat the crumbs from under the table. Your consciousness will catch up to what the depths of your being has already rejected.
A shifting is going on. A shaking. Your life will be built entirely on the Rock; a foundation that can not be shaken.
I see you, know you, and the value I place on your life is immeasurable. I recognize your beauty and strength. I understand all of the hidden and secret places in your heart that long to be sought, discovered and known.
You are being pursued. I am jealous over you and will thwart any plan that involves the enemy of your soul carrying your heart away from me or keeping any parts of your wounds away from my healing touch.
My love is passionate and personal. All that you are experiencing right now is being filtered through my love. It is my ardent desire to ravish you and have you experience me in a way that all other human loves will pale in comparison. A time is coming when anyone that crosses your path will only be regarded through my perfect love for you. They will fade further away in significance until their coming and going, love or rejection, honor or dishonor, will hold no power to harm or harness you. You will be completely saturated in my love, grounded on my foundation, and moving in the freedom that only comes from belonging completely and irrevocably to me.
Bike ✔️cooler with snacks✔️way more than 5 days worth of clothes✔️A healthy mind, body, and spirit✔️beach and divinely appointed adventures in front of me✔️worries and troubles under me✔️Jesus enveloping me in warm acceptance and approval✔️
heart full of hope, joy, and love✔️everything I need✔️Steps ordered by the Lord✔️mounds of gratitude for the deposit of Holy Spirit as a guarantee and foretaste of eternal glory✔️
Step out onto the water and come to Me. You hear me calling your name and you see that I am holding out My hand to you. Why are you afraid that your own inadequacies will hinder My fulfilling what I am asking you to do? You can walk on the water because I have said, ‘Come!’
I do not lead My children into failure and disappointed hopes.
It makes no difference that no one else in the boat with you has ever walked this path I am asking you to step out on. Follow My commands. The vision that I have given you is the title deed to your dreams fulfillment. Behold, I am doing something completely new! I have chosen you, prepared you and anointed you to be My vessel through which I am creating a new way.
My thoughts are infinitely creative.
I love to find a heart willing to be filled with My ideas; strange and original. I Am the Great Artist. My creatures are to co-create with Me never before seen methods of meeting the needs of My people and drawing My lost sheep into the flock. Do not be alarmed by the questions of, ‘Has this been done before?’ The very uniqueness of the ideas that are flowing into your spiritual vision are the hallmarks of My mind being their Author.
Dare to believe that, in My strength, your hard work will yield great results in the advancement of My Kingdom on the earth.
One step at a time my beloved. Step out of the boat and feel the solid foundation that is faith in Me, and My ways with you, as you walk confidently on the water. Those that have stayed in the boat will watch on in amazement as you do what has never before been done; what is humanly impossible.
Unlike with Peter, you will not begin to sink.
I tell you now that I have fully prepared you by training you to depend on, lean on and draw your power from the fountain of all that I am and not from your meager human reserve. I have stripped you down for this season. Now is a time of building up, restoring, filling, overflowing, and abundant blessing.
There are divine appointments lined up and knocking.
Throw open the door of your heart and life and lead people into the storehouse of my blessing and provision. I have given you full access to all that I am. Welcome those that I send you with open arms. You will not be depleted. Continue to draw from Me everything you need; for yourself and for those that I am anointing you to disciple, heal and deliver.
I wake up in the mornings brimming with love, joy, and peace in my heart, and my hope placed securely in The Lord. I literally couldn’t stop believing, even if I tried, that all of my wildest dreams are coming true. Its almost comical to me when reality tries to tell me otherwise. ‘So we fix our eyes, not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, because what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.’
We have eternity in our hearts! How can we not be joyful? We are literally going to life forever! If you are a follower of Christ, you have been given immortality.
I have eternal life!
I am not a mortal.
I have supernatural powers.
I am a warrior prophetess in God’s Kingdom army.
Walking in our calling, living out our purpose, and having supernatural powers are what we humans long for; its what we make our movies and write our stories about. Walking in supernatural power is in our deepest desires because its been put there by our Creator.
And God never places desires in our hearts for shits and giggles. He longs to fulfill them. He is ready and able to bring them to pass.
‘I declare to you, brothers and sisters, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable. Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep, but we will all be changed— in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. For the perishable must clothe itself with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality. When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.”
“Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?”
The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.’
1 Corinthians 15:50-58
Give me your wandering mind as an offering of trust and allow me to calm the crashing waves of anxiety caused by your desire to figure out how I intend to fulfill My promises in the circumstances and relationships that are most important to you. I am giving you exactly what you need to walk forward in confident assurance that I am moving to untangle the confusion, caused by your worry, that I do not have your best interests at heart.
You can only see what I have shown you. I have all of the information that is needed to bring about the absolute best and highest outcome to all that concerns you. Can you see that by insisting on trying to plan every detail of your deliverance, you rob yourself of the blessing that I have for you this day? Not only that, you miss out on taking the necessary steps of preparation that I am leading you to take by spending your time gazing into the future and projecting your ideas of the best solutions to your problems onto the screen of your consciousness.
This practice is filling up space that would be better occupied with faith in My goodness, loving Me, yourself and others this day.
Be present in the here and now.
I know that you need to be encouraged to hold onto the dreams and visions that I have placed within you. I do not mind you asking for signs and wonders and revelation that will strengthen you as you wait on Me, but on some days, I grow weary of your refusal to just rest when I am not showering you with My revelation knowledge.
Know that on the days when I am not dropping buckets of understanding over your mind, it is because I can see that you are already submerged in pools of ‘more than enough.’ I am waiting for you to open your eyes to the abundance around you, and with the joyful trust of a child begin frolicking and playing in the springs of my favor that you are already flowing in. It pains me to see you straining your eyes to the sky for a drop of revelation into your future and problems solution while standing in the waters of all that I am in your life up to your neck.
If you aren’t going to swim and play in My abundance, at least kick back and relax. Let tension and apprehension leave your soul and body. I love you! Close your eyes. Give them a rest from straining towards heaven to see what I am not ready to reveal.
Today I give you a choice. Either plunge joyfully into the stream of My Spirit that surrounds you, or lean back into all that I am for you in this very moment; let your feet leave the ground and rest on the gentle sea of peace that passes all understanding.
I am a friend of God! Woohoo. I LOVE walking in close intimate fellowship with the King of the universe. God no longer calls me a servant because I do what I see the Father doing and I pray what I hear Jesus praying and I desire what the Holy Spirit desires. I do not have to fear that my prayers will not be answered. I have Gods Word on this matter and He is not a man that He should lie. He reveals deep mysteries to me and its an intense and thrilling ride. I have fought through my doubts and fears into a spacious place of grace and power, a new level of glory and supernatural revelation. I am making it through another round of painful pruning and can see and taste the massive fruit that is coming in the next season. I remain in the vine. By the grace and mercy of God I live and breath and soldier on. I beat my body into submission. Christ has conquered death and it will no longer reign in my mortal body. He has anointed my eyes to see heavenly visions and deep and hidden things. He has walked me through the valley of the shadow of death once again. My knees wobbled and my brow sweat, but I clung to the hope of my calling in Christ Jesus and the dark and cloudy skies are clearing; the path beneath my feet is a steady uphill climb out of the valley and up the mountain that is lifting me high above my enemies.
Remain in God even if it hurts. Remain in Him when He leads you into darkness; when you can’t see where He is leading you. Remain in Him when you feel the cut of His knife; He is removing dead weight. Remain in Him and He will remain in you and your joy will grow and grow and grow. His power will be available to you to accomplish everything He calls you to do, and the desires of your heart will be fulfilled His way, His time and for His glory!
‘As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.”
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